Unexpected

Today I was feeling worse than usual. I mean I’ve had this nagging feeling in me but at the same time I felt so void of emotions and I just don’t know what to do about it anymore so earlier, I asked my friend some questions that will apparently lead to self destruction and then all of a sudden she gave me some words of encouragement and I didn’t know that’s what I needed until I got her messages and I guess it was the best thing that can happen to me tonight.

AND THEN, all of my other friends sent me words of encouragement and I honestly have never felt that loved – it was the best!!

I was on my way to starting the wrong path tonight and I did not even notice it. If my friend never pointed it out I would have been stuck in the hole I’ve been digging for myself and there would be no way out. I thank God for all of these unexpected things. Life can surely give so much surprises at the right time…….. sure this rarely happens but I guess today’s events proved that when you’re really about to fall off the cliff, someone out there will pull you back before you actually do.

Well Today Was Interesting

a lot of things happened today…

first: I woke up at around 2 in the morning because I fell asleep at around 6pm last night and so I went online because I cannot sleep anymore and they announced about Pope Francis I! I watched a livestream of the announcement (kind of) and it was actually nice. I then proceeded to DIY a skirt from scratch and it was a success! I now have a skirt and I wore a skirt out  for the first time today (besides our uniform).

second: I went to Chryss’ house. I was late again. it was really bad. we had fun though and we baked cupcakes and it was fun. hanging out with mah friends is always the best!!

third: it was our class gathering with our “brother section” and it was fun and stuff but it got really emotional towards the end…… I think it’s still getting emotional right now……. things got weird but I met new people but still it was weird…….. in a bad and good way…… does that make sense?

It’s Back

I’ve been feeling worse every day. I think it’s back. Whatever was haunting me before – the one that made me feel 1203981 times more irritated and annoyed and mad at everything – it has returned D:

Also, I’ve never been the type of person to have dreams. I never have dreams actually, like I actually asked my parents and friends what must be wrong with me because I never have dreams!! But while I was studying for our World War 2 test, I was halfway through reading the whole thing until I fell asleep. I had this dream wherein I was part of the war, but not as a soldier fighting anymore. Everyone I know was dying or tortured and it was the worst I’ve ever felt about anything. Last night I had another dream. Someone really close to my heart died and I really don’t know what to do. I shouldn’t look too much into it I know but it’s just that it’s really freaking me out I do not know what to do 😦 😦 😦

You Can’t Have Your Cake and Pie and Ice Cream and Eat It Too

Seriously – that’s just wrong and rude and wrong. Stop it it’s not even funny anymore. You don’t get to tell people to do this and do that and get mad at them because you think they’re not listening to you even if they are but you can’t see that because you don’t look at the whole picture at all. Just stop. Please.

Make Good Choices

Today was the last day of our intramurals and they made this guy named Francis Kong talk for the closing ceremony. He was a great speaker. He talked about how winning and losing in life is really all just about the choices you make every day.

And today I was faced with ‘difficult’ choices. I had to choose between my friends and a concert I wanted to go to. When life hands you free concert tickets but you planned something before hand, I suggest you think about things first.

I chose the concert. Of course I picked the concert I mean that’s Paramore and they haven’t toured in a long time and I wasn’t able to watch the last time they went here so yes I picked them. I have no regrets whatsoever with watching the concert because they were beautiful and it made me appreciate a lot of things more. Including friends.

Last year I have decided that I will not regret anything anymore. I will just try to accept things as they are and make sure that I stand up for the choices I make. So this belief of mine stuck to me when I made my decision. When I picked the concert of course there were consequences. I had friends problems and I didn’t like the feeling I felt. It was my guilt eating me up all over again. I don’t like it. After the concert, I realized that there are just some habits of people that I can hardly tolerate and I really wish I knew about them earlier.

When you’re making choices, I suggest you know and think about what you’re doing before you give a final answer. Make sure that other people’s schedule will not be affected badly because of your impulsiveness – believe me, I learned it the hard way. So here’s to you and your future decisions. Make great choices!

Weird Thoughts At 3 In The Morning

This is the history of water on the Planet Mars according to NASA

(b.y.a. = Billion Years Ago)

And I thought………

What if humans were originally from Mars but global warming or something like that happened and people found out that Earth is somewhat like Mars too so everyone moved to Earth and then Mars dried up and then it turned into the red planet now and our ancestors are just keeping everything a secret

W H A T  I F

The Irony Of Choking On A Lifesaver

no this is not the candy and no not the song of All Time Low either (although I am telling you ALL to go and check out All Time Low’s Don’t Panic! It’s their latest album and I would say it’s totally worth your while!) I also think Don’t Panic! deserves a separate post hahaha

Anyhow, it’s been 2 months since my last post and I am deeply sorry about that 😦 We’ve been very busy in school and everything has been going downhill and I just didn’t know what to say anymore.

Term 2 just started and the 2 most important Forms are finally over so I guess I owe you guys several posts… and I’ll start with this!

OH! Me and my friends, Kimberly and Daniela, are starting a shop soon! We just finished the photoshoot earlier and we can’t wait to launch it! Watch out for Ombré you guys 🙂

Anyway, my life’s been pretty up and down these past few months… You would think everything was going well since I don’t really post much about my life but hey, everyone’s got their own slice of the bitter cake. It sucks. There are these people in my life who I think are there to help me out but I guess I just suck at responding to everything properly because instead of getting out of this deep hole that I’m in, I just end up falling deeper…. ergo the title.

Thank god there are concerts though. I just went to one of the best concerts ever. It was the Bazooka Rocks Festival and I was on the barricades from 12:30 noon until 11:30 pm. Yup! That’s 11 hours of just standing up! Thank god those people on stage were nice enough to give us unused water bottles when we asked for one… (There’ll be a post about that too don’t worry haha!)

I also started on a photo blog! Check it out here: http://marianplaza.tumblr.com/

Life is weird again but oh well I just can’t wait for this to end I guess

xoxo

Another [year] with the same kids, another [year] with the same drinks

Today was the first day of my junior year, a.k.a. the year that will decide where I might study college. It was an OK day… nothing g r e a t really happened but it wasn’t that bad either. I’m glad I saw most, if not all, of my close friends though.

Soooo many changes were implemented in our school this year, like 30 minutes (to 1 hour) was added to our school hours and we’re trimester now. We also have a small coffee vending machine now!!!! YAY!!!!!!! I am a coffee person and I thank God that they put one. It’s like 10 pesos per cup and sure it’s small but it’s actually an OK coffee considering it’s 10 pesos… We also have a foreign language class and… we still don’t know where we’re gonna be assigned…. I hope they’ll announce it already to end the suspense 😦

Today honestly didn’t feel like it was our first day. I am in class III – 13, and it’s like classes already started. s i g h.

Junior year will be really hectic and really busy. Our principal already said so. Wish me luck! 😦

P.S. I might not be posting that much because of school but I will try my best to post something at least once a week! (especially D.I.Y.’s because that’s like me new favourite past time hahaha!)

1D Fan Party/Live Tour DVD Launch

I love love love love love One Direction and not since a few months ago, I did not know that there were a lot of Directioners here in the Philippines! So a few weeks ago, there was the 1D Yearbook launch and on that same day, people were allowed to pre-order One Direction’s Live Tour DVD. Me and my friends immediately pre-ordered our own copies and with it came a ticket to the Fan Party that was held yesterday, at the SM Sky Dome.

It started at around 10 in the morning and ended at around 6 PM. When they first announced about the Fan Party starting at 10 and ending at 6, I was so surprised because come on, what kind of party lasts that long?? But yesterday, we didn’t even notice the time passing by. There were A LOT of Directioners. The line was so long that some had to go downstairs so that the walkway won’t get blocked!

Sooo much prizes and merch were given away. There were games too!

There was a 30 minute lunch break for everyone and when it started again, Kit and Vince from Pinoy Big Brother: Teens Season 4 also dropped by!

More prizes were given away through raffle and we also played Bingo! For the first round we had to form the letter D on our card and for the next round, we had to form an L,N,H, or Z. Unfortunately we didn’t win 😦 After the games and after most of the prizes were raffled off, Kit and Vince serenaded the people there and Liam decided to do a Twitcam. Sadly the internet connection there was not that good so we weren’t able to watch him. After the serenading, they left and then we watched the Live Tour DVD of One Direction. Everyone sat down just started screaming hahaha!

There was also a photo booth! Except this is not like any photo booth. It was more of a Marriage Booth, it comes with 1D standees in a Tux and Marriage Certificates.

After viewing the DVD more prizes were given away!! (like standees, Harry and Zayn dolls, posters, etc.)

There was a best-dressed thing too and a boy Directioner won!! He looked like Louis haha!

A group of fans danced too!

Yesterday was by far, the biggest One Direction fans gathering I’ve ever seen and I feel honoured to be there to celebrate the One Direction Live Tour DVD Release with them. The fact that I was there with my friends singing at the top of lungs made everything better and more fun. They also gave away loot bags and in there there’s a shirt, a Juan Directioner pin, a necklace, and a poster.

And of course the DVD

Yes yesterday was definitely a day to remember. 🙂

Playa Laiya, Batangas

Last Friday, we were supposed to go to Batangas to visit some family friends but the trip was moved to yesterday! When we left I asked my dad where we were going and where we were gonna stay and guess what?? He didn’t know. He said we’ll just see when we get there and oh my god I almost had a heart attack. But since we were on the road already, I just let it go and slept the whole time so that I’ll stay calm.

When we got there, we had lunch at our friend’s place and then we went to the beach!! It’s called Playa Laiya and it was really nice and chill there. I was nervous because I didn’t know what to expect but it exceeded whatever expectations I had.

Since I didn’t have a camera, I used my Blackberry to take photos and who knew these things are nice too?? (I guess great lighting helped and the fact that my hand was steady haha)

That’s the entrance omg it’s really pretty

When you go up the stairs this is what you’re gonna see, their pools + jacuzzi and the ocean.

That’s the view from our cottage, it’s really chill and green and relaxing there.

The waves were small but they were really pretty

They rode the banana boat too!

Their infinity pool

Their two kiddie pools

and the cockblocking umbrella haha

Their jacuzzi

The view during sunset omg everything was so pretty and surreal

When it was dark and all, I got bored and decided to play with my phone’s camera! There were lights and I tried moving my phone while taking a photo and I got this:

(the one on top is the light and the bottom thing is from the pool)

I really don’t know what these are I was just playing with lights and idk I think it’s pretty

At around 8PM and after we said our goodbyes, we left the resort and went home. We didn’t stay overnight so we drove back to Manila. I really love road trips especially at night so I enjoyed it. We got home at around 1AM so yeah fun fun fun!! 🙂